My writing is horrible.
No, not really.But iâ€™ve done a summary and am now working on the treatment and I can see, better, the weaknesses of the scenes I wrote before. Scenes I had thought were possibly good enough to include in the first draft. Ha. Now everything needs to be re-written. Itâ€™s a good thing, albeit slightly disappointing. Good that I saw the weaknesses. Good that I can eliminate them. Good that Iâ€™m doing this treatment so I can figure everything out, correctly.
Iâ€™m still flying by the seat of my pants, though. Donâ€™t really know what Iâ€™m doing. Learning HOW to write a novel AS Iâ€™m writing itâ€¦ of course thereâ€™ll be regressions, of course Iâ€™ll have to redo a majority of the work I do as I figure stuff out. Â But itâ€™ll pay off in the end with an exceptional result. And not just for this book. Every book I write after this will benefit from the effort of learning how to write now.
Itâ€™s justâ€¦ itâ€™s a workout. Itâ€™s tough, challenging, sometimes agonizing. But it will make me stronger, not only for this goal, but for ALL FUTURE GOALS.
Itâ€™s funny, I feel this way every time Iâ€™m standing on the edge of a cliff, about to take the leap into something better, something greater. A part of me is looking down, screaming, â€œWhat do you think youâ€™re doing?!! Go back home, where youâ€™re safe! This is too dangerous!â€ But those times that I do keep up my courage and take the leapâ€“whether itâ€™s an event like getting married or just learning a new, difficult skillâ€“itâ€™s well worth it. And the best part usually comes right after I jump.